#3 Sometimes it takes me a minute, but I usually figure it out

Day 2 of this blog. This is an interesting process. I don't know exactly how to manipulate everything but I am learning. It's a good thing to deal with a problem and to figure it out. Honestly it isn't that it's a problem it's a project. I like that better. This blog is a freedom project. The more I do and figure out about it the better.
My life is in project mode to. I went to a car dealership yesterday and they turned me down flat. Man my credit sucks. It's deplorable, embarrassing and disgusting. I made it that way though, so I can't be mad. I just have to pick up the mess, no matter how long it takes. Looking at it though it seems like I'll die trying. I know that isn't the truth but that doesn't stop me from being scared of really looking at my debts and figuring out how to get out from under them. I have to do it. I have to do it for my own piece of mind. I have to do it because if I don't I'll always be broke. I have to do it b/c I want a family one day and they don't deserve to suffer b/c I was irresponsible with my money. I must do it because I deserve to be free.